A new year, a new quarter, an attempt to change things around. My class load is heavy, my work load is worse. I have classes and work everyday from 7:30am to 4:00pm everyday except Wednesdays and Fridays, Wednesdays having class from 3:00pm to 10:00pm, Friday only 3:00pm. My room mate is drunk again, his parents come tomorrow to drop by his new four-thousand dollar laptop that he doesn't need. I am ardently trying to find new friends without alienating the people here, because lets face it, I can't fully detach from the group without creating a whole bunch of hassle. I have to deal with these people regardless, they're still Charlie's friends. I had Italian with Elena, I'm not sure how that would've worked out, I dropped the class before I had the potential to find out, I'm glad I did. I'm happy (not that I dropped the class necessarily, it was meant as an overarching statement). It is weird seeing someone that disappeared from your life so long ago just pop up as a stranger. Someone that really did bend you out of shape in many ways, some purposeful, some unintentional. She walked through me, I didn't expect anything more, I didn't acknowledge her either so it worked for both of us. Vanessa graduates this year, I don't know whats going to come of that, come what may I really appreciate having her now. I forget sometimes how much good she's been for me. I'm grateful for her. So... where to now? New friends maybe, work, school, money, trips to orland to go shooting, atv-ing, orange picking, farming, hanging with the bovines and V's grandfather (who's an American hero in all ways, he is who Cormac McCarthy wishes he could embody in text).
My wisdom teeth are coming in, my jaw has been in total agony for the last month. It keeps me up when I try to sleep.
The group in my living room are still very audible, talking to each other about the average size of the American male penis, making themselves feel better about their lacking size, re securing their manhood. It pretty much defines their existence. They might as well just whip them out and compare.
I've drank more tonight than I have since November, I've had two beers. I've had more hand squeezed orange juice than alcohol at this party that I supposedly hosted. I don't drink with cannibals.